Blessed is the widow who in her poorness gave all that she could.
Why in my blessedness, can't i do the same for hangin? I love him and yet there is always that thought of me being loved only for what i have. It is said that best to trust your instincts and my guts just say not to trust him.
Do I not love him enough to trust him? Maybe and maybe not.
Monday, November 13, 2006
Saturday, November 11, 2006
November 10, 2006
November 10, 2006
The barbecue picnic was comforting. Having to be with very nice people like basim and rabha, masha, zuzu, maha, ala, and their 2 green eyed beautiful girls, Sham and Lulu.
I get the chance to talk to basim about the witch. I just feel I did the right thing because I have protect the clinic from a person like her. The witch doesn’t have a chance to work back here because she cannot pass the licensure exams and if she does go back home, she then has to pass the board exams there plus pass the kingdom exam from home. The option of going back home and returning to the kingdom is the worst option. The most probable thing she will do is run away before her contract expires. Downgrade did the same thing and what’s to stop her when she needs to support her family.
But now that I have spoken about it to basim, and have actually decided to tell Big Boss about it asap. But there is something stopping me. I am going for my vacation and he might ask himself, what is to stop me from doing the same and not coming back? Best I guess to tell him when I get back.
The women and the men apart.
I listen first to the women. Though I don’t understand what they say, I feel them comparing and sharing each their married life experiences with their own husbands. Zuzu tells me to have 2 husbands, one for love and one for having babies….hahaha. It’s Venus talking but I can’t seem to understand.
The 2 men come and I am surprised Basim asks me IF I BELIEVE GALE? Yes I do. Then what is stopping me? I am dumfounded. I understand the martians but am left alone to decide as a venusian.
The love is something developed and you really never know what the Gods will throw unto you. 3 years of bliss then you have the kids, it’s a different stage always, twinned with problems where you also doubt always but you are committed to work things out. That’s what’s important, you stay committed to work things out for the both of you. So don’t be afraid to jump because time is gold…it is the most important you have now which you may not have tomorrow….the 2 men had adviced me well.
You 2 may have misunderstandings but there is always the bigger picture of…where do we go from here to make things better for us?
There is this person willing to walk with you through this life…take it. What am I waiting for? Uh…a proposal?
Basim says if I have all the questions to ask knowing I myself have no answers for it, then what is it actually telling me? I am afraid, afraid of the unknown. Excuse me, he says, we are all afraid and we have survived all of it this long.
Dra Maha said something today that made me think deeper about my career path.
She is working for Abu Badr who used to run our clinic. He rented and paid Big Boss SR26K a month before and he wanted to buy the whole place but Big Boss did not want. Now Abu Badr owns 4 clinics one of which Dra Maha is working for. He is a better businessman than Big Boss but less caring to his people.
This struck me more than anything, dra maha said, “YOU ARE LIVING IN HEAVEN AND YOU DON’T REALIZE IT.” Fortunate we truly are to have Big Boss as owner so we truly have to help him stay happy. Right now, he is not happy with the income the clinic is getting but I do hope things change for the better. I need all the help I can get.
I have 1 more year to go on my contract. I think it best to finally apply to SA without letting anybody else know. I can only hope for the best.
The barbecue picnic was comforting. Having to be with very nice people like basim and rabha, masha, zuzu, maha, ala, and their 2 green eyed beautiful girls, Sham and Lulu.
I get the chance to talk to basim about the witch. I just feel I did the right thing because I have protect the clinic from a person like her. The witch doesn’t have a chance to work back here because she cannot pass the licensure exams and if she does go back home, she then has to pass the board exams there plus pass the kingdom exam from home. The option of going back home and returning to the kingdom is the worst option. The most probable thing she will do is run away before her contract expires. Downgrade did the same thing and what’s to stop her when she needs to support her family.
But now that I have spoken about it to basim, and have actually decided to tell Big Boss about it asap. But there is something stopping me. I am going for my vacation and he might ask himself, what is to stop me from doing the same and not coming back? Best I guess to tell him when I get back.
The women and the men apart.
I listen first to the women. Though I don’t understand what they say, I feel them comparing and sharing each their married life experiences with their own husbands. Zuzu tells me to have 2 husbands, one for love and one for having babies….hahaha. It’s Venus talking but I can’t seem to understand.
The 2 men come and I am surprised Basim asks me IF I BELIEVE GALE? Yes I do. Then what is stopping me? I am dumfounded. I understand the martians but am left alone to decide as a venusian.
The love is something developed and you really never know what the Gods will throw unto you. 3 years of bliss then you have the kids, it’s a different stage always, twinned with problems where you also doubt always but you are committed to work things out. That’s what’s important, you stay committed to work things out for the both of you. So don’t be afraid to jump because time is gold…it is the most important you have now which you may not have tomorrow….the 2 men had adviced me well.
You 2 may have misunderstandings but there is always the bigger picture of…where do we go from here to make things better for us?
There is this person willing to walk with you through this life…take it. What am I waiting for? Uh…a proposal?
Basim says if I have all the questions to ask knowing I myself have no answers for it, then what is it actually telling me? I am afraid, afraid of the unknown. Excuse me, he says, we are all afraid and we have survived all of it this long.
Dra Maha said something today that made me think deeper about my career path.
She is working for Abu Badr who used to run our clinic. He rented and paid Big Boss SR26K a month before and he wanted to buy the whole place but Big Boss did not want. Now Abu Badr owns 4 clinics one of which Dra Maha is working for. He is a better businessman than Big Boss but less caring to his people.
This struck me more than anything, dra maha said, “YOU ARE LIVING IN HEAVEN AND YOU DON’T REALIZE IT.” Fortunate we truly are to have Big Boss as owner so we truly have to help him stay happy. Right now, he is not happy with the income the clinic is getting but I do hope things change for the better. I need all the help I can get.
I have 1 more year to go on my contract. I think it best to finally apply to SA without letting anybody else know. I can only hope for the best.
Wednesday, November 08, 2006
twinkle and the witch
once in my queendom, there was twinkle.
she assisted the queen in all her tasks but she knew deep inside she was cursed. Her curse was that wherever she would go, for sure, there would be someone who would do her harm.
the queen stayed by her side all the time, warning her to be careful. Indeed the others did not like her. The queen often wondered why.
was it because twinkle had charm enough to have all the men to fall in love with her.
was it because she had the guts to get what she wanted
was it because she had the courage to face and solve her own problems as well as others'?
was it because she could get away with murder and a man, Romeo, would still love her?
these were all that the queen knew of twinkle and she was proud of her.
but it was not to be a fairy tale, because the witch came to remind her of her curse.
the witch brewed her anger for 2 months, in silence, and one day, just suddenly burst from her couldron....boiling hot...
armed with her threats and dagger, threatens to kill twinkle. why? because she is poison.
how can it be, the queen asks? but all is too late. twinkle decides to leave to save her life.
how the queen prays she could have helped more. truly there are times the queen would like to kill the witch herself but for what?
Justice is for the Gods to do, for the world to conspire.
Twinkle wherever you are, be patient, forgive....and lastly.....hope. We can still live happily ever after.
she assisted the queen in all her tasks but she knew deep inside she was cursed. Her curse was that wherever she would go, for sure, there would be someone who would do her harm.
the queen stayed by her side all the time, warning her to be careful. Indeed the others did not like her. The queen often wondered why.
was it because twinkle had charm enough to have all the men to fall in love with her.
was it because she had the guts to get what she wanted
was it because she had the courage to face and solve her own problems as well as others'?
was it because she could get away with murder and a man, Romeo, would still love her?
these were all that the queen knew of twinkle and she was proud of her.
but it was not to be a fairy tale, because the witch came to remind her of her curse.
the witch brewed her anger for 2 months, in silence, and one day, just suddenly burst from her couldron....boiling hot...
armed with her threats and dagger, threatens to kill twinkle. why? because she is poison.
how can it be, the queen asks? but all is too late. twinkle decides to leave to save her life.
how the queen prays she could have helped more. truly there are times the queen would like to kill the witch herself but for what?
Justice is for the Gods to do, for the world to conspire.
Twinkle wherever you are, be patient, forgive....and lastly.....hope. We can still live happily ever after.
trash
things like trash never did bother me before.
all my things were scattered all around me, mom used to say I have this affinity to buy "trashy" things...then why am I so sensitive to it now.
perhaps living alone and having to fend for myself has taught me a lot.
CLEAN AS YOU GO.
being alone does teach you that because you have no one to rely on but yourself.
i open my door & i see, not my trash but the trash of 4 other girls i live with....who cant even throw the trash down 3 flights of stairs????!!!!!
i ask myself now, does it bother me that they don't care about the stench it leaves the hall or does it bother me more that its outside my door?
more of the 2nd reason i think so i guess i will have to bear throwing it myself...hmph!
clean as i go...if i truly want to live by my words....then don't rely on anyone else....even if i'm cleaning other people's trash as they go.
God bless me.
all my things were scattered all around me, mom used to say I have this affinity to buy "trashy" things...then why am I so sensitive to it now.
perhaps living alone and having to fend for myself has taught me a lot.
CLEAN AS YOU GO.
being alone does teach you that because you have no one to rely on but yourself.
i open my door & i see, not my trash but the trash of 4 other girls i live with....who cant even throw the trash down 3 flights of stairs????!!!!!
i ask myself now, does it bother me that they don't care about the stench it leaves the hall or does it bother me more that its outside my door?
more of the 2nd reason i think so i guess i will have to bear throwing it myself...hmph!
clean as i go...if i truly want to live by my words....then don't rely on anyone else....even if i'm cleaning other people's trash as they go.
God bless me.
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