loving the idea of loving

carlo told me one day, i think with hangin, you only loved the idea of loving but did not really love the person.

this is the 2nd time i have been accused of such and by 2 people thousands of miles apart.

it may be true but it shakes me to feel that if there is truth in what they say about me, then would that mean i have never really been truly in love?

37 and never been in love.

i alwayd asked hangin before, how did you know it was me? he said it just is. so you just know without understanding why?

they also say loving someone is like that, you just do. no need to question why also.

naawa naman ako sa sarili ko.

so loving the idea of loving and hoping you would get to love the person along the way is not the way actually?

we must love the person for who he is, accept him for what he is.

well i guess i tried to love the idea and the person but they were just 2 different things ....irreconcilable.

nakakalungkot.