November 10, 2006

November 10, 2006

The barbecue picnic was comforting. Having to be with very nice people like basim and rabha, masha, zuzu, maha, ala, and their 2 green eyed beautiful girls, Sham and Lulu.

I get the chance to talk to basim about the witch. I just feel I did the right thing because I have protect the clinic from a person like her. The witch doesn’t have a chance to work back here because she cannot pass the licensure exams and if she does go back home, she then has to pass the board exams there plus pass the kingdom exam from home. The option of going back home and returning to the kingdom is the worst option. The most probable thing she will do is run away before her contract expires. Downgrade did the same thing and what’s to stop her when she needs to support her family.

But now that I have spoken about it to basim, and have actually decided to tell Big Boss about it asap. But there is something stopping me. I am going for my vacation and he might ask himself, what is to stop me from doing the same and not coming back? Best I guess to tell him when I get back.

The women and the men apart.

I listen first to the women. Though I don’t understand what they say, I feel them comparing and sharing each their married life experiences with their own husbands. Zuzu tells me to have 2 husbands, one for love and one for having babies….hahaha. It’s Venus talking but I can’t seem to understand.

The 2 men come and I am surprised Basim asks me IF I BELIEVE GALE? Yes I do. Then what is stopping me? I am dumfounded. I understand the martians but am left alone to decide as a venusian.

The love is something developed and you really never know what the Gods will throw unto you. 3 years of bliss then you have the kids, it’s a different stage always, twinned with problems where you also doubt always but you are committed to work things out. That’s what’s important, you stay committed to work things out for the both of you. So don’t be afraid to jump because time is gold…it is the most important you have now which you may not have tomorrow….the 2 men had adviced me well.

You 2 may have misunderstandings but there is always the bigger picture of…where do we go from here to make things better for us?

There is this person willing to walk with you through this life…take it. What am I waiting for? Uh…a proposal?

Basim says if I have all the questions to ask knowing I myself have no answers for it, then what is it actually telling me? I am afraid, afraid of the unknown. Excuse me, he says, we are all afraid and we have survived all of it this long.

Dra Maha said something today that made me think deeper about my career path.

She is working for Abu Badr who used to run our clinic. He rented and paid Big Boss SR26K a month before and he wanted to buy the whole place but Big Boss did not want. Now Abu Badr owns 4 clinics one of which Dra Maha is working for. He is a better businessman than Big Boss but less caring to his people.

This struck me more than anything, dra maha said, “YOU ARE LIVING IN HEAVEN AND YOU DON’T REALIZE IT.” Fortunate we truly are to have Big Boss as owner so we truly have to help him stay happy. Right now, he is not happy with the income the clinic is getting but I do hope things change for the better. I need all the help I can get.

I have 1 more year to go on my contract. I think it best to finally apply to SA without letting anybody else know. I can only hope for the best.